I had a dream about my father last night.
The whole family went out west to go skiing. He walked over to the counter next to me to buy our elevator tickets and I stopped, waiting to hear if he’d buy me one. He doesn’t and I feel that heavy silence hang around in the air where you don’t know whether to acknowledge the sad elephant in the room or carry on as usual so as not to highlight it.
I chose the old one and with tears in my eyes I looked at him and said “I really wish you could be out there with us.” He gave me a warm hug (as we stood side by side facing the counter) and with a tear replied, “Me too. But I will stay and blog about all that I have been through.”
Okay, the last line is a bit funny, but my dad did write a lot of good articles which he has published in several newspapers and on his blog so it makes sense. The dreams are weird, because I’m sure it’s a combination of thinking about our upcoming ski trip and memories from all the skiing mom and dad took us to. go up. But overall, I was left with a deep sense of connection.
This dream allowed me to feel the essence of being with my father; We have always had a close bond and emotional connection. And since the dream happened like it was seconds before I woke up for the day, it felt like he was right there, right across from my consciousness. Bittersweet, but a fun way to start the day.
I took Finley out and poured a coffee and ran as fast as I could to get my calculator so I could write it down. My dreams never stick with me for long and I want to get rid of them before the feeling eludes me.
So here I am now… happy Friday! This has been a really nice week. I have finished Deep work and I’m serious when I say I can start over right away (but I think David can listen to it first so I’ll have to wait since we share the same Audible account).
With what I’ve gained from practicing my focus control, we’ve got peaceful and attractive home school vibes. I will be really practicing these new techniques in time management with purpose to keep this going even though our activities will start again in the next two weeks. Both girls will have basketball, soccer and piano. Kaitlyn will also have TKD and I am considering enrolling her in a home theater class during the day. She is, shall i say gifted? in the TV series, so I thought it would be a fun fit for her.
I started looking for someone to watch Finley while we were on a short ski trip. Some friends recommend Rover for me and it’s a neat service. I met a potential babysitter yesterday who is very sweet but we both agree it’s probably not the best fit right now, as she has three young children and Finley must be watched. pretty tight at the moment.
I will contact another option or two today and pass my finger, something will work out. I feel like a new mom again trying to find a babysitter and just want someone who will love my sweet fluffy baby like their own. I wonder where Kaitlyn gets her dramatic side from…
David and I sat on the couch drinking together last night. We’ve been focusing on logistics lately as we’re getting ready to close the Charlotte house, find a new tenant (so we can trade 1031), manage Bearolina, discuss commitments, etc. It’s really great to just relax and chat. And it’s amazing how quiet and disengaged girls can be in their play when they know they’re past bedtime…
Today’s plan: meal plan, math and reading aloud with the girls, exercise, groceries, taking Finley to the fields to run, and execution PizzaH. Yay for pizza night! Hailey plays basketball at 7:30 tonight, which throws a wrench into the whole pizza/movie vibe, but I’m excited to watch her play!
Oh, on movie notes! I think we’re the only ones who haven’t seen Sing 2, but I’ve heard great things. As of today, it’s available to rent on streaming platforms, so if you need a home movie, check it out!
Thanks for letting me ram, buddy. I hope you have a great weekend
