Sweater [true to size, wearing in small] // Trousers [size down if in between, wearing in 2] // Booties [true to size]
I like a good question and sesh answer – mostly asking questions, I’m a question guru. Sometimes it’s a bit too much when I meet someone for the first time – “What’s your Enneagram#?” “Where do you work?” “Do you love food as much as I do?” “How many siblings do you have?” “What are you watching on Netflix right now?” and so it continues. Once in a while, I like to give you a chance to ask me anything you want – as serious or as silly as you want, I’m also an open book, whatever. I recently put out a call for questions, and while there are many that I don’t cover in today’s post [more on those in a later blog post] I think I’ll tackle a few of the heavyweights. The better the juicer, let’s start juicing.
You asked….
“What do you go to therapy for?!”
The proper answer would be “why don’t I go to therapy?!” No subject felt confined as I sat in that cozy room talking to my therapist. My biggest focus: what pain am I trying to avoid in my life [which I believe is isolation] and why it came about through pleasing people, lack of boundaries in my life [you guys, the power of a pause can work wonders in any realm of your day so I am learning – from thinking before you put something in your mouth, to choosing not to fill the awkward silence with gossip, to consider if your communication style could be viewed as flirtatious with somebody other than your spouse, to evaluating the “yes” that you give to a social activity before paying attention to if it’s really necessary, etc, etc]. While I still have a long time [we’re talking never-ending] My journey ahead, it is unbelievable so far. One of the main worries I want to overcome is my crippling fear of anything medically related. [doctor appointments, blood pressure checks, walking into a hospital, the thought of giving birth, etc] and through a few EMDR sessions, I’m on a path to reducing those fears, which I feel empowered and hopeful. I have no plans to stop treatment anytime soon.
“How did the hormone test go like you did?!”
OH, this? Let me tell you. For one of my four urine samples, I spilled it all over the toilet and I quickly tried to scoop up a cup of urine mixed with toilet water hoping it would still work. Well, turns out that’s not the case. Needless to say, the company sent me a new test [no, I didn’t have to pay again thankfully] and I will do it all again next weekend! I’m so excited to see the results and learn a lot about my body [from my cortisol levels, melatonin, state of hormones, etc]. Note: I am meeting Seeds spawn Read my tests and then make a personalized supplement and nutrition plan for me for optimal fertility based on my results! Talk about…
“What’s a baby update?!”
Update is… ..we will start trying to conceive in the next few months! It sounds crazy to say that [after 16 years of answering “I’m not sure if/when that will happen!” to have it be a “plan” is nuts]. We had officially decided that we would see a child in our future and while Shawn and I were both terrified. [or maybe a better word is the hesitation? concern?] around the reality of how a child will change the lives we have become accustomed to during 16 years of marriage, I am ready and excited for life and the abundance/abundance I believe a child will add to our lives. In the end, I had to say to Shawn “I don’t think I want to have children” to realize that I really do. It’s funny how sometimes it’s letting go of things that allows us to feel more clearly what we really don’t want to let go of. It’s like when you’re deciding if you want McDonald’s Fries or Burger King Fries, you flip a quarter and it lands on Burger King and then you feel your stomach growl that you really want McDonald’s… like So, except in a will change your life forever, the kind of big decision 
So now you might be wondering, why wait a few months to start trying and not just start getting off that horse? [Shawn, you are the pony in this equation] now?! Good…
“Where’s your next trip?”
It’s because of this answer right here. We are going to catamaran in the Bahamas for a week in November which I absolutely love [and maybe a wee bit nervous] About. Exactly this catamaran [everything is included and it looks incredible – we are going with my sister and her husband for a 40th birthday celebration!] And I really don’t want to deal with morning sickness when I’m in a small boat at sea for a week. I can try to think of worse things but don’t think of much. So there were no babies before [Lord willing] and we’ll see what happens after that. Until then, CHEERS! After a lot of “deeper” talk, this question feels appropriate.
“Do you ever get tired of sharing your personal life?”
Yes, I absolutely do sometimes. But when I feel that way, I simply don’t. No wonder I’ve been quiet on Instagram stories for a day [or weekend] if I simply don’t feel it. I also never felt obligated to share the tiniest details of my life, but instead, I chose to share what and when I wanted to. With that said, I’ve found that the more I share *facts* of life, thoughts, struggles, fears, joys, etc – the more I enjoy being here. I seem to be most tired of this job at a time when it seems less personal, and more business. So sorry you idiots, you’re stuck hearing about my spilled urine and other fun stuff.
And note that, I will allow you to focus on the things that really matter in your life [like that load of laundry you’ve been avoiding…I know, because I have been too] and will be back next week *write it in your planner so you don’t forget* with answers to more engaging questions including but not limited to “How do you make money?!” and “Are you afraid all this blogging stuff will be done within 20 years?!” Follow your friends, stay tuned.
